2 days til who knows what. Uncertainty is the only certain thing about my trip. It sort of feels like a hitchhike adventure where you know you have some sort of destination that you are heading to, but you aren't really too sure if you are going to actually make it. Your outcome no longer depends on you alone. The outcome will be a combined effort of your desire, and nice people to help you along the way.
So not many people know what's going on with me. I'm not too sure myself. I just know that starting in March of 2009, my thinking took a turn. More of this information will come out in following blogs..if i can actually keep up with this blog thing.
My faith was rocked. By me. By my thinking. No crazy incidents. No deaths. No life shattering experiences. Just confusion. I wasn't lacking anything except the peace and joy I was publishing and proclaiming. This caused me to cease in all my faithful activities. I took time to step back and look at what I believe and what I was doing from a third person perspective. In this time I had the freedom to explore my doubts. I had the freedom to explore what made sense to me rather than being given what to believe. sooo freeing. In the past 1 year and 5 mos, I have gotten to the point where I can no longer call myself Christian. Who knows what will happen in the next few months.
I have some money saved up, not a whole lot, but I'm taking what fundage I have and I'm headed out to see things I've never seen, to read, to think, to explore. I guess it's your typical soul-search type of scenario where Adam needs to figure out who he is. What he stands for. What he believes. You know....the basics that all humans need to live a fulfilling life with some sort of sense of direction.
Wait a minute.. This is getting too long. I wouldn't even read this blog myself. =)
check in later for more action adventures of the Adamo.
It's not too long silly. It's interesting to know what's going on in your life and where you stand. Makes me think about all our conversations of past when we would just talk about anything and everything for what seemed like hours. You were such an encouragement to me. I will be thinking about you and praying for you (like a have been for the last 4 years and yes I do believe prayers make a difference) Love ya man, I hope on your journey, you find whatever it is you are looking for. ")
ReplyDeleteSoooo Courtney showed me your blog and I have to say I feel the same way. A good word to describe my inside is stagnant YUCK! Anyway my husband and I just listen to this and I found it very encouraging. If you have time to listen to it maybe you will to :)
ReplyDeletehttp://northway.thevillagechurch.net/resource_files/audio/20060903CA01S_MattChandler_EcclesiastesPt07-ApproachingTheDivine.mp3
thanks courtney and kasey!!! =)
ReplyDelete"My faith was rocked. By me. By my thinking. No crazy incidents. No deaths. No life shattering experiences. Just confusion."
ReplyDeleteI'm with ya!
dig. i think a lot of people are confused about issues in their faith.. but since hell is the only alternative to not believing (for the most part, i know u have a different experience concerning eternal damnation)people have to find reasons to continue pressing on pressing on believing what is clearly contrary to natural thinking. Good topic of discussion.
ReplyDeleteHey neighbor...I'm just now finding time to sit down and catch up on what you've been up to! I'm so delighted to "see" you here and looking forward to this vicarious journey. :) Be well...and thanks so much for keeping us up-to-date! Jennifer
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